Saturday, January 26, 2013

Adulthood

Assalamualaikum and Salam Sejahtera to my dear faithfully readers,

Yeaaaaaah it's me again and I'm back on blogging! Hehe. Dah lama gileeee x blogging. Last time ak check ak wat post kat blog nih on August 5 2012. Tupn post nih pasal praktikal ak kt IAMM yg horror wich ak just copy paste from my report. Soo post kali nih nk update skit (skit ke? mcm byk je ak rasa) bout me.

1. 10 YEARS TOGETHER WITH IIUM FINALLY ENDED!
Alhamdulillah ak sgt bersyukur yg ak dah grad from IIUM on 13th January 2012. Wlupn result tak kuar ag (dh nk kuar dh pn 30/1 nih) tp ak nk ckp dh yg ak dh grad pasal ak yakin last sem smuanya sbjk ak dh boleh lulus dah. Hahaha. Tak sgka ak dh abeskan degree. Rasa legaaaa sgt dh abes degree nih cuz rasa satu bebanan kt bahu nih dh ilang. Now I can proudly say to my parents: "Mama and Abah, I am undergraduate now". Tak sia2 my parents kuarkan lots of money for me untuk smbg blaja kt IIUM nih cuz akhirnya berbaloi gak usaha dorg nih. Hehe. Ingt senang ke nk abes degree? In my situation, it took me 5 and a half years to finish my degree at IIUM tercinta. Ak plk minor Bisnes soo mmg puas gile akhirnya ak dpt gak abeskan additional 11 subjects yg ak kena amik in order to complete my minor. Bayangkanla member Human Sciences yg laen just amik total credit hours dlm 120++ credit hours while ak plk kena amik 149 credit hours.  Paling terharu ak dpt gak abeskan degree ak with minor dlm masa 4 tahun gak mcm org lain. Seksa segala jiwa batin raga kot nk wat minor Bisnes nih. Hahaha. Takpela at least I learnt soo many things with business subjects klu x asyik terperak dgn sbjk2 history pn tak berkembang minda n knowledge ak nih.

Well ak ckp 10 years pasal 10 tahun nih termasuk skali dgn 5 tahun ak kt skola Sg Pusu cuz during these 5 years hidup ak mmg tak lari dr IIUM. Yela solat jumaat every week kt sini, wat sukan tahunan kt sni n so on. Wlupn ad je members ak yg perli ak cuz hidup ak x berkembang dr skola smpi kt u duk kat Gombak je but I never regret. Generally speaking, ak rasa best sgt blaja kt uia. Ak rasa yg paling best skali da Islamic environment yg ak dpt sepanjang ak belaja kt sini. This is something I am gonna miss so much. Huhuhu.


2. POSTGRADUATE
So far I am planning to do my master at UK. I have applied 6 universities at UK but I decided to decline 3 universities which are Manchester and Glasgow because both universities asked me to retake the IELTS test while Westminster did not respond at all my IELTS result. So I just left UCL, Leeds and St Andrews. Tp St Andrews nih rasanya mcm xdpt je pasal dier nk CGPA 3.6 while my current CGPA only 3.515. Besides result final sem yg kuar nt pn mmg kompem takkan dpt naekkan CGPA ak smpi 3.6 but stil ak nk try gak r anta saje2 fefeeling nk try market. Haha. So most probably just pilih antara UCL and Leeds. Of kos hati nih mmg nk sgt p UCL cuz it's UCL kot! Kat London plk tuh and UCL is currently at no 3 for best university in the world. However nk p UCL nih stil dilema cuz x kompem ag wat MA psl I have to do Graduate Diploma Archaeology first since ak xde background in Archaeology. Klu p Leeds mmg dh kompem wat MA. Hmmmm.

But lately ni ak rasa ragu2 n down sgt pasal Master ak nih. First because Master ak nih is totally something new pasal it is in Archaeology field n ak plk just ad background in History je. Second, lepas baca details course nih ak rasa mcm PAYAH GILER n tak mampu nk wat. Of kos artefact studies sounds appealing to me but pikir2 balik ak takut ak bosan n better stick with history je. Ntah r ak rasa dilemma sgt. Third ak riso gile dgn wat master nih ak dapat keja ke x lepas dh abes master nih nt. I mean kamon kt Malaysia nih sape la pandang sgt sape yg ader Master in artefact studies nih? Terpikir gak nk kerja kat UK tp rmi ckp skang foreigners susah nk keja kt UK pasal recession bagai. Arghhhh soo many to think about!

Another thing dat I am afraid to sambung Master kt UK ni is dat I am going to leave my comfort zone. Smua bnda kena independent. Besides for da first time I am going to be far away from my family. Mesti sedih gile. Ak ni dh la life skills ZERO! Drive keta pn takut smpi skang. Masak lgsg laaa tak reti. Kerja bertukang or pape manly works ni apatah lagi. Bwk moto wlupn dah accident 4x jela berani. Pelik2 btul ak. Haha. I think it is time for me to be my own n no more dependent kat org dh. Huhuhu.

Ak nih yakin je ckp psl Master nih macam dh kompem pegi. Actually ak just dpt conditional offer je baru. Lps dh dpt final result nih kena anta official full transcript kt unis yg ak apply nih n den tggu whether ak dpt unconditional offer ke x. Klu dpt unconditional offer nih mksdnya tempat ak dh guaranteed r kat sana. Patu sponsor pon x kompem ag. Ak harap r sgt dpt MARA tp MARA nk final CGPA 3.5 n ak riso gilee n berdoa n berharap sgt so dat kuar je result 30/1 nih CGPA ak dpt maintain 3.5. Klu final CGPA ak bwh 3.5 mmg punah la harapan nk smbg master kt UK. Mintak2la x. Klu bnda ni terjadi terpaksa la pikir Plan B. What is Plan B? Ntah ak pn x taw.


3. EMPLOYMENT
Memandangkan result tak kuar ag soo ak takderla apply keja skang nih. Plan kuar je final result nt trus nk apply partial transcript. Tak sggp la plk nk tggu full transcript br apply keja cuz lmbt sgt. Full transcript takes time nk kuar pasal kena tggu result endorsed by senate. Den kena wat clearance dlu r so leceh. 

Seyesly, ak kena keja cepat. Ak tak sggp depends on Mama, Abah n Balan mintak duet n belas kasihan dorg je belanja ak makan. It is time for me to belanja Balan n tanggung my parents. Besides ak dahla pinjam duet Abah RM1200 nk beli iPhone 5 guna Pakej Komunikasi Belia SKMM tuh so nk cepat2 bayar hutang nih lagi. Den ditambah ag dgn monthly ASB ak kena byr manalaa ak nk korek duet nih klu x kerja. 

So far xtaw nk keja ap. Bajet nk keja HR, Customer Services or sth related dgn dua2 ni r. Sepatutnya ak kena tggu setahun utk dipanggil dgn gomen pasal ak JPA holder but mmg x r ak nk tggu setahun. Lagipn ex-students yg amik kos tak professional mcm ak nih utk TIDAK DIPANGGIL by JPA adalah 90%. Maka keja swasta je r. Plan nk keja yg banyak gaji trus wlupn kena merana pasal nk simpan duet p UK. Hopefully murahla rezeki ak senang dpt keja. AMEEEEN!


4. MARRIAGE
Tahun ni ak dh 24 tahun n of all topics yg ak paling nk elak sekali adalah KAHWIN. Of kos skang nih mana2 ak p everyone is talking about marriage. Well nk wat cmne dah ak mmg idup in Malay culture maka waktu2 cmni mmg topik perbualan smua nk kahwin. Kadang2 rasa annoy gak pasal it gives u some sort of pressure yg ko kena kahwin cepat. Klu borak2 dgn members mesti je ader sorg dua kuarkan statement "Azam laa kawen dlu" but seyesly that is not gonna happen.

I once told my friends in high school dat I do not want to get married and yes ak masih berpegang kepada statement ini smpi skang. I believe in JODOH cuma ntah r I do not see myself as a husband and a father. There are too much responsibilities that you have to bear. Of kos I love kids but ntah r ak seyes takder hati nk kawen. Lagipon I never fall in love betul2 n ak tak nmpk ag jodoh ak nih. In fact ak dh siap sedia n terima hakikat dat I am gonna end up alone smpi ak dah tua nt n everyone will judge me. Oh also dis is another reason y I want to go to UK, live and work there cuz I wanna run away from this Malay culture dat if u do not marry u r considered worthless to the society. 

But of course klu dah ditakdirkan ak utk kahwin ak terima je la tapi biar masa saje la yg tentukan segalanya yew.


Semenjak jd penganggur berjaya nih mmg duk umah je la sepanjang masa. Nk kuar umah jenjalan takder duet pon soo byk abeskan masa depan laptop layan Oscar nominated movies n hindustan. Hehe


I think dat's all la kot. Later.



2 comments:

  1. it's okey baby. let's get married. jom.

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  2. nak komen nak komen. psl marriage tu. aku pon cam kau dulu mmg x nak kawin and maybe amek anak angkat je nanti. tapi skang aku cm x saba nak kawin. haha gatal. maybe belom sampai kot dalam hati kau tuuu or orangnya on the way nak jumpa kau, or kau yang lambat org tu tggu2 kau..and lagi 1, lelaki yg x kawin wont get as much crap than an andartu okay. mana tau kau pi uk tetiba balik ngn minah salleh hot gila ke kan. hahaha. positive thoughts okay? :)

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